Good question. What exactly is going on? Problem is...no one knows. And when I say no one, I mean no one. So, as previously reported, our nearly last step of being granted an EP has still not occurred. Why you ask? Yup, me too. And, there was another wrench thrown in this week, which at this point, is really no surprise to anyone that has been on this ride. Korea has now decided that those folks that are Korean American should get priority of the EPs. I am not certain why this is as our adoption agency has not told us yet, but I am thinking it is because they want their kids placed with people that will maintain some of their heritage. I get that. Okay....fine. However, why mess with the EPs? Referrals...I understand that. But I don't understand why they get preference over us for an EP. I have been waiting, not so patiently, for Emme's EP to be submitted. I have been waiting now for nearly five months. I take no issue with the Korean Americans who will get their referrals and EPs faster, because they didn't make the decision. I want to know, though, when their government has made this so hard on me and my family, why make it harder? It cuts to the core. I am upset because I have jumped through every hoop that they have brought to me, paid every bill, and have done everything I was supposed to do. And this happens? Yes, I know that it will all be better once Emme is home....but it doesn't make the wait any easier. Her room has been done for two months now and the only thing that is in her crib is a tiny Korean doll. Not my baby girl. It seems unfair. Adoption isn't about fairness, though. It certainly isn't fair that any of my friends have to wait longer to hold their babies and it wasn't fair that these children had to be put up for adoption in the first place. It is hard. It is not a fun place to be.
Yet, I have hope! We have not yet been told that there are no more EPs for the year. So, maybe??? I have said throughout this whole process that I would love to have Emmeline home for Christmas and it isn't Christmas yet. I once had hopes that she would be here for Halloween and I could dress her as a little princess or maybe Thanksgiving and she could wear the little brown corderuoy dress that I found. I suppose we can do that next year.
What my friends and I need right now are prayers. None of us know what God's timing will be. We need strength to get through more bad news and we need people to rejoice with when we get our good news! Please keep us in your conversations with the Big Guy. I know I feel better knowing people are thinking of us.
