Seriously?

You know, this crazy thing called adoption can really get to a person. Not that I wished I hadn't done it, but sometimes....uh, I just don't know what to say. So, I previously posted on the unpredictable EP situation and it has continued to be just that....unpredictable. Korea was supposed to issue EPs this month as well as submissions, but decided not to. Instead, they are doing other random things. So, when will we see some movement here? Unfortunately, no one knows. And why are they doing this? Politics? Regardless, there are many families and children suffering because of this whole deal. Ours included. I don't know that my boys are affected all that much and I can't say that Troy has had quite the visceral response that I have. I suppose it is the whole mom thing coming into play. It is my role to protect my babies and make sure that they are safe and happy. Not that I don't think Emmeline is safe and happy with her foster family, because I am certain that she is. I want that role, though. I am the mom and I need that baby girl home with me!
My heart aches for all of those caught up in this. I don't think it is fair to any of us and it is so hard not having any answers. Will our kids come home this year....next year....ever? I am thankful that I can talk with the other adoptive moms and we can share our feelings with each other. No offense to anyone else, but I truly don't think these feelings can be fully understood unless you are going through it. And, I don't wish that on anyone. This is pretty painful.
I compare all of this to the time when I was going through infertility treatment. There were major steps with each passing month and you didn't know if you passed that step until you went into see the doctor. If the body didn't do what it was supposed to, you take a step back and try again. And again and again. New meds, more meds....waiting. Now it is paperwork, paperwork...waiting. The good news is that patience and fortitude pays off in the end. I have three wonderful boys to show for it! And God willing, I will have a beautiful baby girl, too.
Continued prayers for us and all families that are troubled right now are greatly appreciated. And please pray for our children on the other side of the world.