The News

So, for one month now, we have been anticipating whether or not we would be the parents of a little girl from Korea. We got news yesterday....the answer was no. It was a word I had considered that we may hear, yet the word still stung. No? Why? What is wrong with my family? Why would you think that we wouldn't be a good family for this little one? All of these questions still run through my head and they are still unanswered. Unfortunately, I don't know the answers and probably never will. Going in to the adoption realm, I knew that God had a plan for me and my family. For the last month, I thought I had an idea as to what that plan might be...I was wrong. That doesn't mean that it is good or bad...just that I was on the wrong track. I still feel badly that this little girl won't be living under the same roof as me, getting presents from Santa with my boys, and smiling with us in our family pictures. It wasn't meant to be. I left this whole thing in God's hands and He is who I look to for direction. He is pointing me elsewhere, to a little girl who is waiting just for me. I will keep looking for her.